Back to work

Today I am finally back to the office, after almost 3 months maternity leave. Lamanya, rasa malas sangat nak pegi kerja. Malas tu satu hal, nak tinggalkan Irys kat rumah, sedih & sayu jer rasanya.

Last night Hubby on-call. Irys ni macam tahu2 jer Mummy nak tinggalkan dia, kul 3.30am dia bangun menyusu and she slept 1.5hrs later. Tgh2 mlm boleh pulak dia nak ajak main tgh2 mlm ni. Unfortunately I was so sleepy and tired (had a surprused bday part 4 abah yesterday) so tak la layan Irys main.

In the morning I woke up and siap2. About 2o mins before nak pegi kerja, Irys dah bgn, like usual, dia nak menyusu. So, lepas menyusu, usually Irys tido semula til 9+. Tapi td agaknya dia ingat Mummy nak bawak dia jalan, dia tak tido semula. Mata dah bulat2.. As as I sent her down to Bibik Marni, gave few instructions, Irys pandang jer I.. tak berkelip2. Agaknya dia pelik kenapala Mummy tak siap2 kan dia. Selalunya Mummy keluar lepas dia mandi. Hem.. sayu jer rasanya.. nak nangis pun ada..

Sampai office, termenung kejap. Teringat Irys kat rumah. But I know, this feelings won't last long. Nanti dah biasa, oklah kot. I called mak to check on Irys, she was doing fine. Except dia ada melalak sikit sbb bibik lambat bagi susu. Padanlah some mothers sanggup behenti krja just to jaga anak kat rumah. Tapi 'ekonomi' hubby tak cukup lagi.. And I'm not the type yg duduk rumah jer.. Sedangkan cuti maternity pun busy keluar shopping la, tolong budak opis buat preparation launching for our new building la..hem.. itulah dugaan..cobaan...